Tricia the Artist

Expression of my perspective.

Reflections and Ramblings

Fear for the Future

Posted by Tricia Drover on November 25, 2015 at 12:05 PM

The world is an absolutely terrifying place right now. War. Climate Change. Terror. There is almost no good news. I feel like we are on the verge of catastrophe.

And yet my life is so wonderful. I am so happy. Everything is exactly how I want it to be. I couldn't ask for more.

I suppose if the world had to end, that is the note I would want it to end on. Rather pessimistic and dark thoughts, but at the same time I have to admit that I have my happy ending.

I have an amazing husband, joyous children, and a beautiful home. I see the people I love most in the world on a regular basis. I have a positive relationship with my family and friends and they all know how loved and appreciated they are. I have a job that I enjoy and I am on the path to a career that stimulates me. I have the opportunity to explore a variety of interests and experiences. I have safety, shelter, nourishment, and indulgences. Other than my far-reaching anxiety about the state of the world I have no real on-going problems. Life is truly, honestly wonderful.

Things could change tomorrow. In fact, they likely will. Probably not in the way I anticipate but change is one of the few definite things in life.

Another definite thing is the fact that the only moment we can guarantee that we will have is right now. All of the moments past are gone, all of the moments to come are only possibilities. Right here and now is all that we know we have. Spending it regretting what has happened or afraid of what will happen means that your entire life will be wasted. Life is only right here and now. There is nothing more than this moment. Being afraid of tomorrow is ridiculous because there simply is no tomorrow. There is only now.


Sometimes I wonder if there is any point to any of this. I mean, why bother planning for a future that I have no control over? It is possibly a future that will never come.

And then I read this today:

It is a good reminder that, no matter what happens, we cannot truly be destroyed. Even if we are vapourized by the end of the world the energy that made us still exists. We will always be. Life will always be. Humans can destroy a lot, but we cannot destroy everything. There is a purpose beyond day-to-day existence. I believe that. And believing that makes my fear of tomorrow seem rather insignificant.

We cannot control a lot in life, but we can control how we think. And obsessing about things that are happening that I have no control over is not going to help me enjoy my life at all.

Every moment that we experience love is a moment that we make the universe a better place. One day we will no longer exist on this crazy, mixed up planet. One day we will drift on - whether it be individually or collectively, everyone currently existing on this planet today will one day cease to be in their current forms. That is a certainty. But what is also a certainty is that none of us will cease to exist entirely. The pieces that created us will live on in some form. We are all a part of the great existence. We are all a part of something much larger than ourselves. Something that cannot be destroyed by war or human ineptitude.

The moments that I spend with my loved ones are the moments that matter. No one can take those from me. It is in my control to appreciate them. I have the choice to enjoy my life here and now, and not be afraid of what might happen. I have the choice to be present. 

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